Who needs friends when you have food?

Ok, I don't mean what I wrote in the title. I'm just being a smart-ass. I know I had my little tantrum yesterday over my friends sucking but I am better now. I do still love them all. I really do and I would still do anything for anyone of them. It was just a bad day and I was up late stressing about what was going on and thus my hissy-fit blog post at midnight.

My problem is that one of my friends has created a huge problem for a lot of people. Due to the nature of this problem I can't really discuss it... yet. I owe her that much. I don't want to complicate anything for this "friend" right now since she and several others have enough to deal with.

In addition to that problem I don't have anyone I can really talk to about the problem and since it is really affecting me all I can do is make cryptic blog posts. All I want is someone I can talk to who can listen (hell, I am not opposed to having them give advice, comment, criticism, whatever) and will not tell anyone else about this.

I don't have anyone who can just be there for me or that I feel like I can go to and trust 100% with this. It's not a good situation. For me to vent I have to reveal things about another friend and I can't risk it getting out as gossip. Last time I tried to talk to someone about something similar the person told another person. You know how that goes so I have learned my lesson. It's just a shitty lesson to learn.

So I have let this bug me all day. I had planned a day at the spa (first time in years I have done something like this but thanks to a gift card and a hubby who knows I am about to burst from stress I figured what the hell) and all I could think about during my facial was this drama.  

So since I needed comforted and had no one I could turn to (and hubby was too wrapped up in a WOW raid with his guild) I got creative in the kitchen.

Well maybe not creative but I did try out some new recipes. I got them out of my months installment of magazine (probably Good Housekeeping or Ladies Home Journal, I can't really remember). So on the comfort food menu for today we had:

Fresh Tomato Soup & Ciabatta Prosciutto Sandwiches. I tweaked the recipes a tiny bit from what was listed but here is what I did:

For the Soup:
1. Dice 3lbs of vine ripe tomatoes
2. Dice 1/2 white onion
3. 2tbsp extra virgin olive oil
4. 2tbsp balsamic vinegar
5. 1 1/2 tsp kosher sale
6. Combine in a bowl and let sit for 30 minutes.
7. Puree until very smooth (the original recipe said strain but I liked it with chunks in it.)
I then added a pinch of garlic salt and refrigerated while I made the Sandwiches.

For the Sandwiches:
1. Dice a can of artichoke hearts (recipe said 6oz but we used almost all of 14oz)
2. Mix 2tbsp extra virgin olive oil and 2tbsp balsamic vinegar
3. Toast required amount of bread ciabatta bread slices
4. Brush bread with the oil and vinegar mixture
5. Layer desired amount of artichoke hearts
6. Add a slice of mozzarella
7. Add 2 slices of prosciutto
But because I am a pig and love food I added basically another layer starting with 2 more slices of prosciutto, a slice of mozzarella, artichokes and another slice of bread so my sandwich wasn't an open faced sandwich.

After stuffing my face I felt less depressed... until I saw the mess I made in the kitchen. But even though I am a horribly sloppy cook with a kitchen to clean and I have some other issues at this time... I have a satisfied tummy and right now that counts for a lot.